martha
Active Member
For the first time in my life, I truly have a bad feeling about another person that clouds my thoughts. Our former President, Bill Clinton looked directly into a camera in the face of millions and lied about the fact that he had an intimate relationship with a woman outside of his marriage. It is that fact and that fact alone that for some unknown reason to me, has pushed me away from even considering anything he says. This is the first time that I seem to hold a grudge against another human being. I really feel uncomfortable, for I am someone who forgives without question in every other instance. I don't know why I hold this anger in my thoughts for this man. Perhaps it is because I truly believed that he was an honest man. I put my faith in his ability to be truthful. When he looked into the camera and lied, it really blew me away. Do people really believe that oral sex isn't sex at all? Does Bill Clinton really believe that?
I guess to some degree, I can understand his fear of admitting the truth in the beginning, but to outright lie and to try to be so convincing when he did it on nationwide TV just floored me. I really don't understand why I am so adament about taking my time to forgive him, as if that action were necessary at all. Frankly, who cares if I forgive him? It really bothers me that this particular incident has been so accepted and washed away by most people. It is not the action that I can't get over, it is the bald faced lie that he spoke when he looked directly into the camera and spoke to the world. This is the first time I have ever talked about my feeling towards Bill Clinton. I truly hope that some day I can get over this feeling of being deceived by this President. I feel like a real hypocrite. Here is Martha, the one who purports to love and forgive everyone, but she just can't let her anger towards this man for outright lying to her go.
Perhaps by putting my words into print, I will be able to re-read them and focus on the reality of our weakness. At the moment it is not happening for me. Damn Bill, why did you try to be so sincere in your lie? Why did you have to go on nationwide TV to try to perpetuate this lie. It's one thing to get caught and then have remorse, but it is another thing to get caught and then try to lie your way out of it. I have no respect for anything this man has to say. For this I beg forgiveness, and understanding. Forgive me my friends, but I just had to let this out. Maybe it will heal me in the long run.
I guess to some degree, I can understand his fear of admitting the truth in the beginning, but to outright lie and to try to be so convincing when he did it on nationwide TV just floored me. I really don't understand why I am so adament about taking my time to forgive him, as if that action were necessary at all. Frankly, who cares if I forgive him? It really bothers me that this particular incident has been so accepted and washed away by most people. It is not the action that I can't get over, it is the bald faced lie that he spoke when he looked directly into the camera and spoke to the world. This is the first time I have ever talked about my feeling towards Bill Clinton. I truly hope that some day I can get over this feeling of being deceived by this President. I feel like a real hypocrite. Here is Martha, the one who purports to love and forgive everyone, but she just can't let her anger towards this man for outright lying to her go.
Perhaps by putting my words into print, I will be able to re-read them and focus on the reality of our weakness. At the moment it is not happening for me. Damn Bill, why did you try to be so sincere in your lie? Why did you have to go on nationwide TV to try to perpetuate this lie. It's one thing to get caught and then have remorse, but it is another thing to get caught and then try to lie your way out of it. I have no respect for anything this man has to say. For this I beg forgiveness, and understanding. Forgive me my friends, but I just had to let this out. Maybe it will heal me in the long run.