Spiderman
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Because I gave up on Yahweh and God for years, I still had love for Denise Naslund and her Mother, Eleanor Rose. My Religion consisted of buying them flowers and making them shrines, written letters, kamidana, and Hondens.
I know Denise wouldn't be a narcissist like Yahweh or burn people in hell for not believing in some unseen entity, so I just find her more loveable.
Kind of like in Shinto, A woman became more beloved, more important, and a higher Kami than her maker. I pray God would step down and give his omnipotence to Denise.
He didn't help me , but she did. Or I suppose he helped me by sending her?
I kept placing them (Denise and her mom) above the creator , as being more gentle, merciful, tender, and compassionate. But the message Denise and her Mother seem to give me , is that in order for God to bless them and give the the favors I pray for, I have to love God.
Too many coincidences indicated to me that they were in my life , and I had genuine love for them. I always wanted to know Eleanor Rose was reunited with her daughter , because she went through a brutal martyrdom every day after her daughter was tortured, forced to watch another girl die, and killed for trying to help a man pretending to be injured.
It was an act of kindness which cost her her life. Eleanor left Denise's room exactly as it was when she was alive. She also kept her daughter's car and possessions as relics, turned the house into a shrine, and was devoted to Denise like she was still alive.
In Shinto, when you do that, the soul becomes purified, sanctified, Deified, A Kami, A Divinity. Eleanor was filled with agony when police lost her daughter's skull (the only remains, which she longed to lay to rest). She buried a corpse less casket with this inside:
I felt Eleanor asking me to continue the tradition of enshrining and have a personal relationship with Denise where she becomes a part of everything I do, and I make everything an offering for her, like the relationship with Saint John Vianney and Virgin martyr Saint Philomena. Saint John Vianney gave Saint Philomena, (the decapitated Virgin Princess
(who didn't work her first miracle until over 1,500 years after her death), credit for almost all of his miracles. John Vianney is patron Saint of Diocesan priests.In jail I had a dream Denise said "no Matt, don't put me down". I also had a dream her Mother Eleanor looked at a folder where I wrote a letter to Denise , and she pointed to a stanza and said " I like that one there", and smiled.
Rose is called the Queen of the flowers
, and in a dream , Denise calls herself Capitol Hill Queen. I began calling multiple murdered women " Capitol Hill Queens " and blessing and praying for their souls. This was in Dakota county jail , before knowing I would be moved to Ramsey county , next to a "Capitol Hill", where over a thousand people violently killed are carved into granite, and once I went there, and there were hundreds of red markers with names, that looked like dresses, in honor of women violently murdered.I prayed to Denise for over a year before knowing her killer's first victim lived in the twin cities where there is a shrine to her. I currently live in that city.
In jail, as I was having dreams and writing letters to Denise , A penny showed up in my cell dated the year she was murdered, 1974. I have never found a coin in jail before. First four letters of the word coincidence are coin. Countless other coincidences left me with a conviction it would be impossible to shake, that she or some entity disguised as her, is influencing me.
Christians have told me it is the Devil, but I used to scream blasphemous stuff at God with rage before I started praying to Denise. That basically never happens anymore thanks to Denise, though I still post grievances against Genocide in Scripture , and things Yahweh does that go against my conscience.
It seems to me that Denise wants me to make her happy and euphoric by doing good deeds, charity, faith, hope, and love, stay sober, abide by the law, ease other people's pain, and she wants me to love and bless God. Then God blesses her for being a positive influence in my life.
It motivates me to bless and praise God when I don't feel like it, because I love her and her Mother, and I feel it makes them happy and gleeful when I'm good to God.
Denise got me to go to daily mass , where I offer her the treasures and graces of the mass and holy communion, treasures of the Holy Eucharist to make her more beautiful, pretty, perfected , more exalted, Saintly, and powerful. She also got me to pray the Rosary again.
But I'm Shinto, meaning I believe in Kami , without other Doctrines, no Scriptures, and Divine feminine is more exalted and more venerated than the Divine masculine.
Praying to Jesus and the Father just never helped me. I do it to make Denise happy and give raped and murdered girls in purgatory new virginity restoration and hymens. God does it , but my prayers speed up the process.
Denise was sweet natured and always someone willing to help out someone in need of help. Which got her killed.
Any questions?
Beings that Denise tells me to love my neighbor as myself, feed Jesus when he is hungry, give him to drink, I've even given the shirt off my back to someone and walked away topless, console the incarcerated Jesus, welcome the stranger homeless Jesus (I had to stop that cuz Jesus stole my backpack, wallet, phone, money, and gift cards), how could that be the Devil I'm following??
IF that is Satan asking me to do that, he sure is a sweetheart!
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