VoidCat
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So I thought I would share my religious journey with y'all. I'll break it down.
First off I was raised Christian. A very messed up form of Christianity that even Christians would be like "that's wrong". I won't get into the details but the church was sexist, racist and lgbtphobic. I started questioning things because I realized I was trans. And according to the form of Christianity I was taught that was wrong. People told me I would go to hell for it. I even attempted suicide. So I begun to read the Bible. And I reread it. I begun to question even more. God seemed so cruel. The concept of hell bothered me. Why would God send anyone there when it was his fault Adam and Eve ate the fruit? Why didn't he want them to eat it? Did he just want blind obedience? I really wanted to hold onto Christianity tho so I put these questions aside. The problem was the more I read the more I couldnt vibe with it. The version of Christianity I was taught was everyone outside of it was unhappy. But I noticed many of my nonchristian friends were happy sometimes happier then me. I became a nondenominational Christian.
Eventually I became a Christian Quaker joined RF to find out more. Again. Questions plagued me. I could no longer ignore them. I begun to wonder why didn't I just let go of the concept of hell and sin altogether? Why should I try so hard to hold onto beliefs such as these? But then I'd no longer be Christian and risk damnation. So again searched the scriptures for answers...I begin researching other religions such as judaism, paganism, islam, etc. I found that Christianity seemed less likely to be true.
I got more intrigued by the occult and by paganism. At first I would try to mix Christianity with paganism. Then I realized I was only doing so outta comfort. I did not believe in christianity. So I let go of Christianity entirely. I started worshipping Hecate. She eventually would decide she didn't want me worshipping her so I would stop. I now worship Loki, Sigyn,Angrboda and Hel. I do not however work with any of them as I do not feel prepared enough in knoweldge to do so. I feel really connected to nature. Paganism is perfect for me and I am much happier practicing it. Recently Ive started researching Satanism and Luciferianism and find both really interest me. I feel perhaps mixing some paganism with theistic Satanism or luciferianism may be nice. I do not know yet tho. I do not wish to rebel against christianity. I just want to find and pursue knowledge where ever I can. If that means from a left handed path so be it. I just want to improve myself constantly and better who I am. I'll go where ever my path leads me.
First off I was raised Christian. A very messed up form of Christianity that even Christians would be like "that's wrong". I won't get into the details but the church was sexist, racist and lgbtphobic. I started questioning things because I realized I was trans. And according to the form of Christianity I was taught that was wrong. People told me I would go to hell for it. I even attempted suicide. So I begun to read the Bible. And I reread it. I begun to question even more. God seemed so cruel. The concept of hell bothered me. Why would God send anyone there when it was his fault Adam and Eve ate the fruit? Why didn't he want them to eat it? Did he just want blind obedience? I really wanted to hold onto Christianity tho so I put these questions aside. The problem was the more I read the more I couldnt vibe with it. The version of Christianity I was taught was everyone outside of it was unhappy. But I noticed many of my nonchristian friends were happy sometimes happier then me. I became a nondenominational Christian.
Eventually I became a Christian Quaker joined RF to find out more. Again. Questions plagued me. I could no longer ignore them. I begun to wonder why didn't I just let go of the concept of hell and sin altogether? Why should I try so hard to hold onto beliefs such as these? But then I'd no longer be Christian and risk damnation. So again searched the scriptures for answers...I begin researching other religions such as judaism, paganism, islam, etc. I found that Christianity seemed less likely to be true.
I got more intrigued by the occult and by paganism. At first I would try to mix Christianity with paganism. Then I realized I was only doing so outta comfort. I did not believe in christianity. So I let go of Christianity entirely. I started worshipping Hecate. She eventually would decide she didn't want me worshipping her so I would stop. I now worship Loki, Sigyn,Angrboda and Hel. I do not however work with any of them as I do not feel prepared enough in knoweldge to do so. I feel really connected to nature. Paganism is perfect for me and I am much happier practicing it. Recently Ive started researching Satanism and Luciferianism and find both really interest me. I feel perhaps mixing some paganism with theistic Satanism or luciferianism may be nice. I do not know yet tho. I do not wish to rebel against christianity. I just want to find and pursue knowledge where ever I can. If that means from a left handed path so be it. I just want to improve myself constantly and better who I am. I'll go where ever my path leads me.
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