I find myself in a bit of a mood tonight. My room mate is playing this video game in the living room called Spiritfarer, and the game is just gorgeous. It's a very chill game that's bright and colorful, and it honestly looks like it'd be fun to play. The main character, though... She reminds me of my ex gf.
I haven't talked to her in about 4 months after I left my living situation with her. It's all been for the best, as I've been able to start taking care of myself for once. But... I do miss her a lot. She was my best friend for 7 years, and cutting her out of my life completely has left a hole in my heart. With time, the hole has healed a lot, but it hasn't healed up completely yet.
When I see this video game character, I'm reminded of all the good times we shared. I'm reminded of her artistic creativity, her careless nature, and the good times we shared (especially in the beginning, before the negative side revealed itself). Of course, I'm conveniently forgetting all the rest of my time with her where she would manipulate my emotions, make me feel constantly guilty, and isolate me from my friends and family. It sure is something how the mind conveniently forgets negative parts and only leaves you longing for the good memories?
Still, what's done is done, and it can never be undone. I wouldn't be surprised if I never saw her again. The idea of that makes me sad... She understood me on a level that I don't think anyone ever will.
I sometimes forget how much my life has changed in such a short amount of time.
I haven't talked to her in about 4 months after I left my living situation with her. It's all been for the best, as I've been able to start taking care of myself for once. But... I do miss her a lot. She was my best friend for 7 years, and cutting her out of my life completely has left a hole in my heart. With time, the hole has healed a lot, but it hasn't healed up completely yet.
When I see this video game character, I'm reminded of all the good times we shared. I'm reminded of her artistic creativity, her careless nature, and the good times we shared (especially in the beginning, before the negative side revealed itself). Of course, I'm conveniently forgetting all the rest of my time with her where she would manipulate my emotions, make me feel constantly guilty, and isolate me from my friends and family. It sure is something how the mind conveniently forgets negative parts and only leaves you longing for the good memories?
Still, what's done is done, and it can never be undone. I wouldn't be surprised if I never saw her again. The idea of that makes me sad... She understood me on a level that I don't think anyone ever will.
I sometimes forget how much my life has changed in such a short amount of time.