Shalom, everyone!
Recently, after a verse from the book of Joshua came into my mind [24:15], and seeing myself (metaphorically, of course) in the Israelites through that, I’ve become drawn back to a relationship with the G-d of Israel and am seeking out His Will for me.
Now, while I have given thoughts in the past to a full conversion to, yes, Orthodox Judaism, I do recognize that as a non-Jew, I don’t necessarily have to pursue this course. Rather, I can observe the Sheva Mitzvot b’nei Noach (The Seven Laws of Noah). So, I’m exploring their observance as my path towards G-d. I think I could do well in this!
However, with this, there’s just one disconnect from my end: I’m not exactly a monotheist proper, but actually, a monolater (which is to say that while I believe in many gods, I choose to exclusively worship one). When it comes to the prohibition of idolatry, I’ve read and been told that not only the worship of, but even the belief in other deities besides HaShem is idolatrous for me. That’s where the almost comes in. I guess by HaShem’s Standards, maybe I could never be fully pious. I don’t know.
Recently, after a verse from the book of Joshua came into my mind [24:15], and seeing myself (metaphorically, of course) in the Israelites through that, I’ve become drawn back to a relationship with the G-d of Israel and am seeking out His Will for me.
Now, while I have given thoughts in the past to a full conversion to, yes, Orthodox Judaism, I do recognize that as a non-Jew, I don’t necessarily have to pursue this course. Rather, I can observe the Sheva Mitzvot b’nei Noach (The Seven Laws of Noah). So, I’m exploring their observance as my path towards G-d. I think I could do well in this!
However, with this, there’s just one disconnect from my end: I’m not exactly a monotheist proper, but actually, a monolater (which is to say that while I believe in many gods, I choose to exclusively worship one). When it comes to the prohibition of idolatry, I’ve read and been told that not only the worship of, but even the belief in other deities besides HaShem is idolatrous for me. That’s where the almost comes in. I guess by HaShem’s Standards, maybe I could never be fully pious. I don’t know.