8 months recovery

[Riders]

I'm celebrating 8 months of recovery from porn and love addiction. I'm making a little lonely every month on my own plus I have a new job I'm losing weight feeling better. But still am alone and single.I am about to start counseling and psychiatric help.

Its like I should be feeling a lot better but still have with drawel issues cravings temptations on porn and the internet, lets just be honest the internet and virtual reality games are a part of my porn addiction as well. I still get depressed without the addiction I need counseling. Youd think id be ready to date after a year of sobriety and I want to so bad.

But still have physical issues like I said thoughts are still here, its taking a long time to get away from it. I want to date so bad, and my sister wants me too. But I think i need to be in counseling for awhile before I do that. SO theres lots to celebrate about but still have lots of issues and depression over addiction.

I know Christians may step in here and Im risking that buts its ok. I do want to start going to church and reading my bible this year. No I dont believe in it absolutely and yes I still believe Pagans wrote it, HOWEVER God was still speaking through those who wrote it though its not literally true.

But I do think the bible is a good place to get my thoughts cleaned up, its good, its a spiritual book, I think going to church is a good place for me too, I want to got o Unity church of Dallas there's 2 of them, but definitly picking up on spirituality is going to be important.

I have been practicing Zen meditation at home which helps and I would like also to join in with a Zen session now and then too. I know that some Christians in the 12 Step program use like Celebrate Recovery which is a Christianized version of AA and the 12 Steps, sso I know that having a church and areligious spiritual program helps a lot of folks. CR is not my thing sense its a Christian church deal.

I may try going back to UU eventually as well.

 

[Samana Johann]

Mudita

Simply stay firm with the precepts , best the eight, and practice generosity, householder Riders. All other will turn out great by itself, no need to pull.

 

[Riders]

Mudita

Simply stay firm with the precepts , best the eight, and practice generosity, householder Riders. All other will turn out great by itself, no need to pull.

Thanks.

 

[sun rise]

You are "climbing a very steep hill", @Riders . Best of luck.

 

[whirlingmerc]

I'm celebrating 8 months of recovery from porn and love addiction. I'm making a little lonely every month on my own plus I have a new job I'm losing weight feeling better. But still am alone and single.I am about to start counseling and psychiatric help.

Its like I should be feeling a lot better but still have with drawel issues cravings temptations on porn and the internet, lets just be honest the internet and virtual reality games are a part of my porn addiction as well. I still get depressed without the addiction I need counseling. Youd think id be ready to date after a year of sobriety and I want to so bad.

But still have physical issues like I said thoughts are still here, its taking a long time to get away from it. I want to date so bad, and my sister wants me too. But I think i need to be in counseling for awhile before I do that. SO theres lots to celebrate about but still have lots of issues and depression over addiction.

I know Christians may step in here and Im risking that buts its ok. I do want to start going to church and reading my bible this year. No I dont believe in it absolutely and yes I still believe Pagans wrote it, HOWEVER God was still speaking through those who wrote it though its not literally true.

But I do think the bible is a good place to get my thoughts cleaned up, its good, its a spiritual book, I think going to church is a good place for me too, I want to got o Unity church of Dallas there's 2 of them, but definitly picking up on spirituality is going to be important.

I have been practicing Zen meditation at home which helps and I would like also to join in with a Zen session now and then too. I know that some Christians in the 12 Step program use like Celebrate Recovery which is a Christianized version of AA and the 12 Steps, sso I know that having a church and areligious spiritual program helps a lot of folks. CR is not my thing sense its a Christian church deal.

I may try going back to UU eventually as well.

Congratulations
Hope things work out

Sometimes our misplaced desires are a wild goose chase and I like this article by John Piper
The Tragic Cost of Her Cavernous Thirst

 

[PureX]

I'm celebrating 8 months of recovery from porn and love addiction. I'm making a little lonely every month on my own plus I have a new job I'm losing weight feeling better. But still am alone and single.I am about to start counseling and psychiatric help.

Alone and single are exactly where you need to be. So excellent work! And keep with it. The solution you seek is not in another person. It's in you. And for you, right now, other people are just a way of avoiding the hard work of digging out that solution and embodying it.

I honor your courage and honesty, and hope you can stay with your recovery program.

Its like I should be feeling a lot better but still have withdrawal issues cravings temptations on porn and the internet, lets just be honest the internet and virtual reality games are a part of my porn addiction as well. I still get depressed without the addiction I need counseling. You'd think I'd be ready to date after a year of sobriety and I want to so bad.

Which is, of course, exactly why you should not.

I was miserable for the first two years of my sobriety. And I thought and felt many of the same things you're feeling. But things did get better. MUCH better. I just had to do the work of recovery. And by five years sober I was a very happy man, with no desire to drink, and no delusions about it to tempt me. I did the work, and I still do, to maintain my recovery. I promise it will be worth the effort.

But still have physical issues like I said thoughts are still here, its taking a long time to get away from it. I want to date so bad, and my sister wants me too. But I think I need to be in counseling for awhile before I do that. SO there's lots to celebrate about but still have lots of issues and depression over addiction.

I know Christians may step in here and I'm risking that but its ok. I do want to start going to church and reading my bible this year. No I don't believe in it absolutely and yes I still believe Pagans wrote it, HOWEVER God was still speaking through those who wrote it though its not literally true.

But I do think the bible is a good place to get my thoughts cleaned up, its good, its a spiritual book, I think going to church is a good place for me too, I want to got o Unity church of Dallas there's 2 of them, but definitely picking up on spirituality is going to be important.

I have been practicing Zen meditation at home which helps and I would like also to join in with a Zen session now and then too. I know that some Christians in the 12 Step program use like Celebrate Recovery which is a Christianized version of AA and the 12 Steps, sso I know that having a church and areligious spiritual program helps a lot of folks. CR is not my thing sense its a Christian church deal.

I may try going back to UU eventually as well.

I took all the help I could get. I went to AA meetings nearly every day. I went to a professional psychologist twice a week for several years (thanks to Catholic Charities in Chicago). And I went to a very good Lutheran Bible discussion group for several years as well (no preaching, just discourse). I needed each of these forms of recovery to deal with the damage of my addictive thinking. And to find a sensible, personal, way of repairing it. Recovery, for me, means recovering the person I would have been had I not fallen on the path of addiction, and followed it for so may years. And naturally, that takes a lot of time, and some serious "reworking" of my own thinking. Mostly it takes PRACTICE. And that's why it takes time. We addicts want the "solution" to be immediate, as our drug of choice was seemingly an immediate solution. But in real life real solutions take time, and practice, and mistakes will be made, and will need to be amended. It's a process. But once we get onto it, it becomes a positive path, and a very good way of life. MUCH better than the life we were living, before.