Riders
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I'm celebrating 8 months of recovery from porn and love addiction. I'm making a little lonely every month on my own plus I have a new job I'm losing weight feeling better. But still am alone and single.I am about to start counseling and psychiatric help.
Its like I should be feeling a lot better but still have with drawel issues cravings temptations on porn and the internet, lets just be honest the internet and virtual reality games are a part of my porn addiction as well. I still get depressed without the addiction I need counseling. Youd think id be ready to date after a year of sobriety and I want to so bad.
But still have physical issues like I said thoughts are still here, its taking a long time to get away from it. I want to date so bad, and my sister wants me too. But I think i need to be in counseling for awhile before I do that. SO theres lots to celebrate about but still have lots of issues and depression over addiction.
I know Christians may step in here and Im risking that buts its ok. I do want to start going to church and reading my bible this year. No I dont believe in it absolutely and yes I still believe Pagans wrote it, HOWEVER God was still speaking through those who wrote it though its not literally true.
But I do think the bible is a good place to get my thoughts cleaned up, its good, its a spiritual book, I think going to church is a good place for me too, I want to got o Unity church of Dallas there's 2 of them, but definitly picking up on spirituality is going to be important.
I have been practicing Zen meditation at home which helps and I would like also to join in with a Zen session now and then too. I know that some Christians in the 12 Step program use like Celebrate Recovery which is a Christianized version of AA and the 12 Steps, sso I know that having a church and areligious spiritual program helps a lot of folks. CR is not my thing sense its a Christian church deal.
I may try going back to UU eventually as well.
Its like I should be feeling a lot better but still have with drawel issues cravings temptations on porn and the internet, lets just be honest the internet and virtual reality games are a part of my porn addiction as well. I still get depressed without the addiction I need counseling. Youd think id be ready to date after a year of sobriety and I want to so bad.
But still have physical issues like I said thoughts are still here, its taking a long time to get away from it. I want to date so bad, and my sister wants me too. But I think i need to be in counseling for awhile before I do that. SO theres lots to celebrate about but still have lots of issues and depression over addiction.
I know Christians may step in here and Im risking that buts its ok. I do want to start going to church and reading my bible this year. No I dont believe in it absolutely and yes I still believe Pagans wrote it, HOWEVER God was still speaking through those who wrote it though its not literally true.
But I do think the bible is a good place to get my thoughts cleaned up, its good, its a spiritual book, I think going to church is a good place for me too, I want to got o Unity church of Dallas there's 2 of them, but definitly picking up on spirituality is going to be important.
I have been practicing Zen meditation at home which helps and I would like also to join in with a Zen session now and then too. I know that some Christians in the 12 Step program use like Celebrate Recovery which is a Christianized version of AA and the 12 Steps, sso I know that having a church and areligious spiritual program helps a lot of folks. CR is not my thing sense its a Christian church deal.
I may try going back to UU eventually as well.