I spent a lot of time thinking about an anthropomorphic type God. Then I spent a lot of time thinking about a pantheistic type God. But lately I've been really resonating with the idea of a Apophatic type God:
Apophatic theology - Wikipedia
I've really been changing my views. For a long time I was resonating with the idea of a omnipotent God of unconditional love. God's love is an all-excepting love with no judgment.
But I'm changing my view on the nature of God. Here are some of my latest thoughts:
The purpose of religion is not to answer fear based questions.
The purpose of religion is not to worship God as being great.
The purpose of religion is to have awareness when we are experiencing true greatness in order to appreciate or experience a sliver of God's greatness.
The religious experience of God is the experience of Gods greatness as it is expressed in people and nature.
God is not a object or person. God is a type of experienced.
Greatness is not labeling people as less than they potentially can be.
Greatness is seeing people as their potential in expressing a sliver of God's greatness.
God is not something existing but God is something to be experienced. God is the force in the Universe drawing us to Him. Liken when someone is "in the zone" during a sports performance. Our moments of greatness are slivers of God's greatness being expressed in reality. A woman's beauty. A man's strength. When we see a great play on stage. When we listen to really good music. When we see someone perform amazing selfless acts of charity for others.
Whatever we experience as "greatness" is a sliver of God's greatness being brought into or exposed in the World. God is our desire to procreate and is the wonderfulness of the experience. God is the light we get drawn to when we die. God is what we are drawn to that gives of enthusiasm. God is the cause of all movement in reality.