Spiderman
Veteran Member
One thing I am at RF is the last person on this forum to tell you a lie.
So, why do I say I'm sorry for something like Blaspheming God or stirring up hate for Islam, then apologizing, then doing the same thing? Isn't that a sign of dishonesty?
No! It's a change of heart. I love Muslims. However, I don't like the Qur'an, Hadiths, or Sharia law. I practice Salat and I make sacrifices on Ramadan. I love mosques and love to pray with Muslims more than go to Church. I pray on my face more than five times a day. I have a kufi (Prayer cap) and turban given to me by a Somali Muslim I would pray with and do Qur'an studies with. Islam means "Surrender/submit to God". That's what I try to do.
So, when I say I despise Islam, I'm being honest. When I say I love Muslims, I'm being honest. Sometimes I feel bad about the negative things I say about Islam. So, I apologize and mean it. It is a change of heart. Then, I see a Muslim diss another faith and argue that theirs is the truth, and I start attacking Islam. I make some mistakes in the process and sometimes apologize again.
It isn't dishonesty. It is a change of heart. I am a sinner and I make mistakes. One thing I'm consistent about is that the Qur'an has some psychopathic verses. So does the Bible. I despise them both (but both have good verses too). However, Jesus was not like Muhammad. He didn't recruit a military to kill for him. He taught people "love your enemies, let the one without sin cast the first stone, turn the other cheek", and Jesus forgave the people who crucified him.
Muhammad did and taught the opposite. So, as much as "Bible Christians" drive me nuts, I will always prefer Christianity over Islam for those reasons. I see predominately Christian countries have really gotten with the 21st century and many Muslims want to live like we are still in the barbaric Old Testament times or the dark-ages.
I'm not saying Christians haven't done just as many bad things, but the founder of Christianity is who Christians are supposed to imitate, and he loved his enemies.
Once again, my point being, there is much in Islam that I despise with every fiber of my being. There is much in Islam I find beautiful. There is much I find repulsive in the Bible. I'm consistent in my views as far as that goes. Where I'm not consistent is the emotions I have regarding God and sacred texts attributed to him. Sometimes I feel genuinely guilty about insulting the faith of humble, kind, meek people.
So, those feelings of guilt lead me to say, "Sorry". I blasphemed God worse this week than I have done in years. I'm not just talking about online. I blasphemed and yelled at an evangelical Christian and at an AA meeting. I genuinely regret it and apologized.
So, I'm 100% honest at RF. I don't have a lot of good qualities. One thing I am is honest and transparent. That is one of the only things I am consistently good at, even to a fault! But I make lots of mistakes and have mood swings where I say things that I regret. So, I say sorry, knowing I will likely make similar mistakes in the future. I hope you understand. A lot of people tell God they are sorry and keep committing the same sins. Can you relate?
Any thoughts?
So, why do I say I'm sorry for something like Blaspheming God or stirring up hate for Islam, then apologizing, then doing the same thing? Isn't that a sign of dishonesty?
No! It's a change of heart. I love Muslims. However, I don't like the Qur'an, Hadiths, or Sharia law. I practice Salat and I make sacrifices on Ramadan. I love mosques and love to pray with Muslims more than go to Church. I pray on my face more than five times a day. I have a kufi (Prayer cap) and turban given to me by a Somali Muslim I would pray with and do Qur'an studies with. Islam means "Surrender/submit to God". That's what I try to do.
So, when I say I despise Islam, I'm being honest. When I say I love Muslims, I'm being honest. Sometimes I feel bad about the negative things I say about Islam. So, I apologize and mean it. It is a change of heart. Then, I see a Muslim diss another faith and argue that theirs is the truth, and I start attacking Islam. I make some mistakes in the process and sometimes apologize again.
It isn't dishonesty. It is a change of heart. I am a sinner and I make mistakes. One thing I'm consistent about is that the Qur'an has some psychopathic verses. So does the Bible. I despise them both (but both have good verses too). However, Jesus was not like Muhammad. He didn't recruit a military to kill for him. He taught people "love your enemies, let the one without sin cast the first stone, turn the other cheek", and Jesus forgave the people who crucified him.
Muhammad did and taught the opposite. So, as much as "Bible Christians" drive me nuts, I will always prefer Christianity over Islam for those reasons. I see predominately Christian countries have really gotten with the 21st century and many Muslims want to live like we are still in the barbaric Old Testament times or the dark-ages.
I'm not saying Christians haven't done just as many bad things, but the founder of Christianity is who Christians are supposed to imitate, and he loved his enemies.
Once again, my point being, there is much in Islam that I despise with every fiber of my being. There is much in Islam I find beautiful. There is much I find repulsive in the Bible. I'm consistent in my views as far as that goes. Where I'm not consistent is the emotions I have regarding God and sacred texts attributed to him. Sometimes I feel genuinely guilty about insulting the faith of humble, kind, meek people.
So, those feelings of guilt lead me to say, "Sorry". I blasphemed God worse this week than I have done in years. I'm not just talking about online. I blasphemed and yelled at an evangelical Christian and at an AA meeting. I genuinely regret it and apologized.
So, I'm 100% honest at RF. I don't have a lot of good qualities. One thing I am is honest and transparent. That is one of the only things I am consistently good at, even to a fault! But I make lots of mistakes and have mood swings where I say things that I regret. So, I say sorry, knowing I will likely make similar mistakes in the future. I hope you understand. A lot of people tell God they are sorry and keep committing the same sins. Can you relate?
Any thoughts?