Closing my RF Account.

[blackout]

Within the next two weeks I will be asking the moderators to close my account here at RF.

I am entering into the turbulent stages of a total life overhaul,
which requires that I let many things go,
and let go of many things.
RF being one of them.

My time here on the whole has been good.
I've learned a lot about mySelf,
and while I do like quite a few of you very much,
let's face it,
it's the internet,
and in my real life
besides my children
and one or two friends who I hardly ever see
I am relationally alone.
Even my father and brother have moved away.

I am alone with no adult support whatsoever.

The thing about the internet though
it makes you feel like you're not alone
when really you still are.


I'd like to thank all of you who let me participate in your DIR's
though honestly I never really did belong in any of them.
You made me feel like I belonged though,
I always felt welcomed,
and I appreciate that.

I grew past a lot of pain here,
learned to embrace mySelf more fully,
(though I still cannot get over my weight/body image issues)

Nights are going to be much longer for a while
with no ability to post
but I will get over it
and hopefully find the energy then
to do some other things
that are necessary to this major life overhaul.
If only I weren't always so damned tired.

To those of you I really have a heart for,
know that I love you, really,
and will keep you with me,
because you have inspired, impressed, and changed me.
Helped me to realize important things about mySelf and my life.
I truly will miss you.
Though we communicate by screens
every now and then the essence of a person reaches through
as if they were really there with you.

Thank you all for having helped keep me sane
through some of the saddest most difficult years of my life.
I wouldn't go completely,
but sometimes
if you really want to change everything
you actually DO need to change everything.

Anyone who wants to write me,
as i said I will be available here a couple more weeks.
I have some business to tidy up here first,
and a few questions for the mods.

last words?

Know ThySelf
and
Seize The Day!

Much Love,
Violet

 

[Valjean]

I'm sorry to hear you're going, UV. I'll miss you.
I hope your life sorts itself out and you emerge happy and prosperous.

 

[Reptillian]

Best wishes to you and your family. Why close your account though? Why not just take a RF vacation of unspecified length? You may want to come back for a visit from time to time.

 

[The Sum of Awe]

Awwww I'll miss you UV

 

[mycorrhiza]

I wish you the best in life! You will be missed here on RF!

 

[sandandfoam]

Be well Vi

 

[Jacksnyte]

Sorry to see you go! We'll miss all those unusual and insightful posts from you! Good luck to you!

 

[Twilight Hue]

Keep shimmering purple. Take good care. :0)

 

[beenie]

I'll miss you and your purple posts, UV. I wish you the very best with whatever decision you make; you know you're always welcome back should you change your mind.

Family is always first; your children are very lucky to have you.

 

[CMike]

I don't know you but I wish you the best of luck.

 

[-Peacemaker-]

My sincerest apologees for anything I ever said that offended you. Be blessed

 

[Kathryn]

This is totally unacceptable!

UV, you don't owe me any sort of explanation but like others here, I do wonder why you feel you need to CLOSE your RF account rather than just take a vacay from it.

I really wish you would do that - I sure will hate not hearing your perspective on things and your unique form of wisdom and understanding.

Have you considered checking in once a week or once a month?

 

[MysticSang'ha]

You will be missed, Vi. You know how to contact me for some chit chat. RF has been blessed with your perspective for so long. :hug:

 

[InsurgoInsurgiInsurrect]

Within the next two weeks I will be asking the moderators to close my account here at RF.

I am entering into the turbulent stages of a total life overhaul,
which requires that I let many things go,
and let go of many things.
RF being one of them.

My time here on the whole has been good.
I've learned a lot about mySelf,
and while I do like quite a few of you very much,
let's face it,
it's the internet,
and in my real life
besides my children
and one or two friends who I hardly ever see
I am relationally alone.
Even my father and brother have moved away.

I am alone with no adult support whatsoever.

The thing about the internet though
it makes you feel like you're not alone
when really you still are.


I'd like to thank all of you who let me participate in your DIR's
though honestly I never really did belong in any of them.
You made me feel like I belonged though,
I always felt welcomed,
and I appreciate that.

I grew past a lot of pain here,
learned to embrace mySelf more fully,
(though I still cannot get over my weight/body image issues)

Nights are going to be much longer for a while
with no ability to post
but I will get over it
and hopefully find the energy then
to do some other things
that are necessary to this major life overhaul.
If only I weren't always so damned tired.

To those of you I really have a heart for,
know that I love you, really,
and will keep you with me,
because you have inspired, impressed, and changed me.
Helped me to realize important things about mySelf and my life.
I truly will miss you.
Though we communicate by screens
every now and then the essence of a person reaches through
as if they were really there with you.

Thank you all for having helped keep me sane
through some of the saddest most difficult years of my life.
I wouldn't go completely,
but sometimes
if you really want to change everything
you actually DO need to change everything.

Anyone who wants to write me,
as i said I will be available here a couple more weeks.
I have some business to tidy up here first,
and a few questions for the mods.

last words?

Know ThySelf
and
Seize The Day!

Much Love,
Violet

Awww, understood though. This forum is great and horrible. I'll miss you and I'm sure many others will too. Some of us lurk in shadows and have favorites even though we rarely pipe up and speak. But I know you are a good apple. You do walk a tight rope but no more than anyone else you just seem to keep your balance better than most. Be good UV. If you need anything make a random account and PM me. Although I am rarely here I do check back every few months to see what's up.

 

[nnmartin]

shame to see you go, and I'm glad that we did manage to agree on occasion

are you heading to Martinsville by any chance? , and will you be taking up nnMartinism any time?

anyway, have fun wherever you go

cheers, Martin!

 

[Me Myself]

I know we almost never spoke directly in posts, and I rarely responded to yours, but I will truly miss you

I always liked your games of words and found great wisdom in them

I hope with all my heart that you may find all that you seek and more in happiness, peace and love.

May you fill full in all of this and be blessed

Thanks a lot for sharing with us (and by inclusion, me )

:namaste

 

[Revoltingest]

May you once again some day grace us with your purple prose!

(Would an offer of virtual bacon tempt you?)

 

[dust1n]

Damnit VI, I've seen you here since I was 18. I've always enjoyed your perspective, the true individual seeking. I won't forget all the conversations of the past, about LHP and religion and banking. I wish you wouldn't delete your account though, cause I think that will make all of your responses disappear from the forums.

I don't blame you though. The internet really is just a vacuum that sucks all human well-being into a void. I've been on a serious break for about 6 months, and it does feel good to have to interact with real people! Please consider just taking a break, and moderate your usage very, very sparingly!

But either way, I wish you the best of luck in your musical endeavors, your career and your children. I have no doubt in my mind that you could make it to Austin one day, and really advance your love for music their, and I know you will find an amazing mate once you get out there. I love ya, girl, and thanks for all the goods times and laughs. You are amazing, truly.

 

[blackout]

Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do.

This is one of those times.

Sacrifice is not just a religious term after all.
Let's just say I love my children more than anything
or anyone.


I do appreciate that some of you truly will miss me.
So many times I have wondered if I post only for my own benefit.
I will have to find other ways of being my own shrink now.
I think I spent almost all of my time here playing psycho analyst to mySelf.

It was most enlightening.

 

[Heathen Hammer]

Best of luck, UV