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Stellify

StarChild
Good, make the time to talk to her!

Now you get me all mushy with my moon superstitions and such....

I like to sleep on the floor once in a while, I do it every other weekend actually. You'd be my guest and would get the bed! Or you'd have to share it with me and the cats.

Sweet! *marks rental car off the list of expenses to visit Amelia* :)


YEAH! You should always make time for yourself. If you want some stones/gems, let me know. I have plenty and would be happy to give you some.


Moon superstitions? Please share :D

As I said, it's a losing fight for you. I'll either share or take the couch/floor. And that is that, mister! :p
Either way, I'm stealing a cat to sleep with. I love having a fuzzball to nuzzle with :D

Psh. Yeah. About the only expenses would be flight and food, ya? My place is itty bitty (especially with myself, roomie, cat and guests), but that just means everyone has to get cozy :p

Thanks for the offer :D If I can find any of my stones (a lot got stolen after my mom died...long story), I would like to use those. If not, I'll probably go dig up some more :) I think there's something healing about using things you've found yourself, for the purpose of helping you get through something tough.
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
Moon superstitions? Please share :D

As I said, it's a losing fight for you. I'll either share or take the couch/floor. And that is that, mister! :p
Either way, I'm stealing a cat to sleep with. I love having a fuzzball to nuzzle with :D

Psh. Yeah. About the only expenses would be flight and food, ya? My place is itty bitty (especially with myself, roomie, cat and guests), but that just means everyone has to get cozy :p

Thanks for the offer :D If I can find any of my stones (a lot got stolen after my mom died...long story), I would like to use those. If not, I'll probably go dig up some more :) I think there's something healing about using things you've found yourself, for the purpose of helping you get through something tough.

I have many moon/Goddess superstions. LOL I wave to the moon everytime I see it and am very self conscious of that, I have a fascination with moon goddesses, I have sworn to what I saw one night that if I ever have a child (it'll be a girl) that her name will be Selene. I even made my ex-girlfriend agree to the name before we talked about such things! LOL, I know I'm hopeless! I digress though and refrain at this point.

It is not a losing fight! You said if I come down, it'd be cozy... so understand it would be here as well.... or you on the couch and me on the floor! I'm very stubborn with some things as well. And as for having a cat sleep with you, understand you'd have no choice in the matter! :)

If you need some stones, I have plenty to share. If you want more stones of your own finding (understood), you know my offer is there to take you to find some.

It is about my bedtime, so I'll only be on for a bit longer. It was GREAT TO SEE YOU TODAY!

XOXO if I don't get to say goodnight.
 

Stellify

StarChild
I have many moon/Goddess superstions. LOL I wave to the moon everytime I see it and am very self conscious of that, I have a fascination with moon goddesses, I have sworn to what I saw one night that if I ever have a child (it'll be a girl) that her name will be Selene. I even made my ex-girlfriend agree to the name before we talked about such things! LOL, I know I'm hopeless! I digress though and refrain at this point.

It is not a losing fight! You said if I come down, it'd be cozy... so understand it would be here as well.... or you on the couch and me on the floor! I'm very stubborn with some things as well. And as for having a cat sleep with you, understand you'd have no choice in the matter! :)

If you need some stones, I have plenty to share. If you want more stones of your own finding (understood), you know my offer is there to take you to find some.

It is about my bedtime, so I'll only be on for a bit longer. It was GREAT TO SEE YOU TODAY!

XOXO if I don't get to say goodnight.

I think that's a beautiful name to give your daughter, if you have one :) Sounds like something I would do.
I've always had an affinity for the various moon/Goddess mythos.

Psh. The minute you tried to pull that on me, I would be on the floor right next to you. Probably sticking my tongue out and hitting you with a pillow. :p

If I ever manage to come visit, we should definitely go look for some! I would really, really love that a lot :D

It was great to see you too! I'm so glad I did :hug: I've missed our little chats.

I'm probably going to sign off soon myself. Have a good night and fun in the various labs tomorrow! xoxoxoxoxo
:hugehug:
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
I woke up so sick on Thursday night. I layed on the bathroom floor for a day and a half. Then I moved to the bed on Saturday. I actually got up, showered, and then went back to bed on Sunday. I had to get up for work today though. Now, I just need to eat something. I am feeling much better, but still tired. I haven't been sick like that in years.

You shouldn't stick your tongue out at people, somebody might bite it! :)

I really, really want to get out to the star garnet mine over in Idaho this year. It is only a couple hour drive. I don't have any of those yet either.

I'll be on spotty this week as I am on nights, tired, have doctor's appointments for my new sleeping meds starting tomorrow, and I may have to go to that funeral soon. I haven't heard anything new on her condition, but I'll call my dad today and find out. Okay, got to run...
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
So I go to my stupid doctor's appointment after work today. I do the usual weigh in (lost 7 pounds since the last time I was there!), blood pressure, etc... So the doctor comes in and we talk for a bit and he wants to give me Rozerem. So, I ask him about the drug and he starts reading about it and then goes, "UH-OH!"

Long story short it can increase depression and isn't reccommended for people with suicidal thoughts! Ha ha ha, so he won't give it to me now; which is good he was checking I suppose. I told him when I can't sleep is when I usually have those thought. So then we went over some other medications he's used before: Tried it/doesn't work, tried it/doesn't work, not for people with suicidal thoughts, not for people on anti-depressants, not for people with suicidal thoughts, etc...

Basically he said he thinks Rozerem will help, but he can't give it to me right now. I go back in a month and he'll decide what to do then, but for now he doesn't want to throw any kinks in my healing. All in all it was a COMPLETE waste of time and money to go see him today. So no new sleeping medication to try for me for a bit anyway. Back to square one....

Then I get home and there is an email from one of my coworkers. She had heard I was complaining a lot about this one job, so she decided she'd just do it from now on. I had no fricking clue what she was talking about as I haven't complained about doing it except for when it is her turn to do it and the one pharmacist makes ME do it anyway! So I had to send her a ticked off email wanting to know who she had heard that from so I can have a talk with that person.

I tell you, today has been a waste of a day. I'd go to bed right now, but I would hardly sleep any so....
 

Comicaze247

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So I go to my stupid doctor's appointment after work today. I do the usual weigh in (lost 7 pounds since the last time I was there!),
AWESOME! :D If you're actually trying to lose weight though. If it's related to your depression, then NOT SO AWESOME!

Long story short it can increase depression and isn't reccommended for people with suicidal thoughts! Ha ha ha, so he won't give it to me now; which is good he was checking I suppose. I told him when I can't sleep is when I usually have those thought. So then we went over some other medications he's used before: Tried it/doesn't work, tried it/doesn't work, not for people with suicidal thoughts, not for people on anti-depressants, not for people with suicidal thoughts, etc...

Basically he said he thinks Rozerem will help, but he can't give it to me right now. I go back in a month and he'll decide what to do then, but for now he doesn't want to throw any kinks in my healing. All in all it was a COMPLETE waste of time and money to go see him today. So no new sleeping medication to try for me for a bit anyway. Back to square one....

Then I get home and there is an email from one of my coworkers. She had heard I was complaining a lot about this one job, so she decided she'd just do it from now on. I had no fricking clue what she was talking about as I haven't complained about doing it except for when it is her turn to do it and the one pharmacist makes ME do it anyway! So I had to send her a ticked off email wanting to know who she had heard that from so I can have a talk with that person.

I tell you, today has been a waste of a day. I'd go to bed right now, but I would hardly sleep any so....
Hmm. That makes me think. Since you've been on multiple medications, it's possible you have Bipolar II (kind of a middle ground between Bipolar).

Do you have a lot of mood swings? Like times when you're really happy and just don't know why then all of a sudden you're down? If so, you might want to talk to your doctor about Bipolar II. That's what I have. Apparently, the epilepsy drug, Lamictal, works for Bipolar II. That was only discovered about 3 years ago. The most common side effect is a bad rash, but I didn't get it, so I'm lucky. Talk to your doctor about it next time you go in. Lemme know how it goes ;)
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
AWESOME! :D If you're actually trying to lose weight though. If it's related to your depression, then NOT SO AWESOME!

I don't need to lose weight. I was really sick this past weekend and I've found I just really haven't started to eat again.


Hmm. That makes me think. Since you've been on multiple medications, it's possible you have Bipolar II (kind of a middle ground between Bipolar).

I'm not bipolar and was diagnosed as having "a severe episode of depression. All the medications I've been on before the anit-depressants I just started not even two months ago have been to help me sleep. I have a bad history with sleeping!

Do you have a lot of mood swings? Like times when you're really happy and just don't know why then all of a sudden you're down? If so, you might want to talk to your doctor about Bipolar II. That's what I have. Apparently, the epilepsy drug, Lamictal, works for Bipolar II. That was only discovered about 3 years ago. The most common side effect is a bad rash, but I didn't get it, so I'm lucky. Talk to your doctor about it next time you go in. Lemme know how it goes ;)

I'm usually as mellow and easy going as they come. I had a ton of mood swings when they started me on the anti-depressants though. That has gotten better recently. My bad (as in sad) mood swings just deal with my suicide attempt and are a "normal" part of healing they say. It is just a matter of dealing with learning to deal with them and it all.
 

Stellify

StarChild
You shouldn't stick your tongue out at people, somebody might bite it! :)
Promises, promises ;) :p

I really, really want to get out to the star garnet mine over in Idaho this year. It is only a couple hour drive. I don't have any of those yet either.
Oh wow, that sounds AMAZING. :bounce

So I go to my stupid doctor's appointment after work today. I do the usual weigh in (lost 7 pounds since the last time I was there!), blood pressure, etc... So the doctor comes in and we talk for a bit and he wants to give me Rozerem. So, I ask him about the drug and he starts reading about it and then goes, "UH-OH!"

Long story short it can increase depression and isn't reccommended for people with suicidal thoughts! Ha ha ha, so he won't give it to me now; which is good he was checking I suppose. I told him when I can't sleep is when I usually have those thought. So then we went over some other medications he's used before: Tried it/doesn't work, tried it/doesn't work, not for people with suicidal thoughts, not for people on anti-depressants, not for people with suicidal thoughts, etc...

Basically he said he thinks Rozerem will help, but he can't give it to me right now. I go back in a month and he'll decide what to do then, but for now he doesn't want to throw any kinks in my healing. All in all it was a COMPLETE waste of time and money to go see him today. So no new sleeping medication to try for me for a bit anyway. Back to square one....

Then I get home and there is an email from one of my coworkers. She had heard I was complaining a lot about this one job, so she decided she'd just do it from now on. I had no fricking clue what she was talking about as I haven't complained about doing it except for when it is her turn to do it and the one pharmacist makes ME do it anyway! So I had to send her a ticked off email wanting to know who she had heard that from so I can have a talk with that person.

I tell you, today has been a waste of a day. I'd go to bed right now, but I would hardly sleep any so....

Ah! That sucks! lol But I'm glad he figured out not to give it to you before something bad happened.
Eh...Your coworker sounds like she's just mad she wasn't getting away with not doing her work. I'd ignore it. :rolleyes:
 

Stellify

StarChild
Ok, time for my little rant about the past few days, since you wanted me to elaborate....

So, as I mentioned, I was having some issues with the boyfriend thing anyways.... Then, he told me that he had plans for Saturday night to go out and have dinner with his mom and friend/ex-girlfriend. So, wanting to get out of the house, I made plans of my own to go hang out with some of my friends. I left here around nine or ten and met up with them at a bar. We BSed and stuff for a few hours, then went to this late-night thai place I love, etc. By the time we were all ready to leave, it was around 3 or 4 in the morning and I didn't want to make the long drive back to my place by myself just yet. One of the guys offered to let me come with him for a few hours and then go home whenever I was ready.

So, I went with him. We hung out for a few hours more and then I went home. It was a long drive (like an hour), and I got back to my place around 8 in the morning. I proceeded to strip down and fall straight into bed with a horrible headache (we had been drinking beer, and it always makes my head pound).

The problem was that, being around three huge, loud, rowdy, drunken guys, having a bunch of fun away from the house for the first time in a while, and generally being distracted, I hadn't checked my phone while I was out.
I was only gone for a little less than twelve hours, mind you.
But, for my room mate and boyfriend, it was the END OF THE WORLD.

To not go into any more detail than I have to, roomie and bf freaked the hell out. At 10am, he shows up at my apartment in a fury. Slams my door, yells at me, etc etc. I don't deal with that well, because I've had some horrible experiences with stuff like that before. He wouldnt' leave the first six or eight times I asked him to leave my apartment. It wasn't fun.
So, that was kind of that. I haven't talked to him since then, but when I do I've decided to end it.

My room mate didn't come home for days straight herself, even though she was furious with me for being gone for twelve hours and not telling her (it's been about five days now, and I still don't know where she's been staying. Hypocrite.).
I texted her on the 2nd about our rent that was due on the 1st, but that we hadn't paid because she wasn't home. She texts back with "Not paying. Do what you see fit."

Basically, she had decided to stop paying rent because our landlords claimed bankruptcy and she didn't think we had to anymore. But had decided to not tell me because she was mad about me not getting in touch with her Saturday night.

I almost packed up my stuff and moved out when she did that. I was angrier than I've been in months. I NEVER get that way.
She was just incredibly childish, petty, selfish, and stupid. I don't tolerate that kind of stuff well.



SO.....It's just been stuff like that on and off for days...I'm sick of it.

I do have another place to live lined up, and it's great. I can't wait to move out lol. My friend said he might try to be my flat mate, which would be awesome. I adore the guy and we have a ton of fun together, get into all kinds of trouble :p



Yeah...that was the short version lol. Sorry to make you read all that. :eek:

 

RemnanteK

Seeking More Truth
So how was the thunderstorm for you in Spokane?
I know I enjoyed it, I love the rain and thunderstorms.
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
Ok, time for my little rant about the past few days, since you wanted me to elaborate....

So, as I mentioned, I was having some issues with the boyfriend thing anyways.... Then, he told me that he had plans for Saturday night to go out and have dinner with his mom and friend/ex-girlfriend. So, wanting to get out of the house, I made plans of my own to go hang out with some of my friends. I left here around nine or ten and met up with them at a bar. We BSed and stuff for a few hours, then went to this late-night thai place I love, etc. By the time we were all ready to leave, it was around 3 or 4 in the morning and I didn't want to make the long drive back to my place by myself just yet. One of the guys offered to let me come with him for a few hours and then go home whenever I was ready.

So, I went with him. We hung out for a few hours more and then I went home. It was a long drive (like an hour), and I got back to my place around 8 in the morning. I proceeded to strip down and fall straight into bed with a horrible headache (we had been drinking beer, and it always makes my head pound).

The problem was that, being around three huge, loud, rowdy, drunken guys, having a bunch of fun away from the house for the first time in a while, and generally being distracted, I hadn't checked my phone while I was out.
I was only gone for a little less than twelve hours, mind you.
But, for my room mate and boyfriend, it was the END OF THE WORLD.

To not go into any more detail than I have to, roomie and bf freaked the hell out. At 10am, he shows up at my apartment in a fury. Slams my door, yells at me, etc etc. I don't deal with that well, because I've had some horrible experiences with stuff like that before. He wouldnt' leave the first six or eight times I asked him to leave my apartment. It wasn't fun.
So, that was kind of that. I haven't talked to him since then, but when I do I've decided to end it.

My room mate didn't come home for days straight herself, even though she was furious with me for being gone for twelve hours and not telling her (it's been about five days now, and I still don't know where she's been staying. Hypocrite.).
I texted her on the 2nd about our rent that was due on the 1st, but that we hadn't paid because she wasn't home. She texts back with "Not paying. Do what you see fit."

Basically, she had decided to stop paying rent because our landlords claimed bankruptcy and she didn't think we had to anymore. But had decided to not tell me because she was mad about me not getting in touch with her Saturday night.

I almost packed up my stuff and moved out when she did that. I was angrier than I've been in months. I NEVER get that way.
She was just incredibly childish, petty, selfish, and stupid. I don't tolerate that kind of stuff well.



SO.....It's just been stuff like that on and off for days...I'm sick of it.

I do have another place to live lined up, and it's great. I can't wait to move out lol. My friend said he might try to be my flat mate, which would be awesome. I adore the guy and we have a ton of fun together, get into all kinds of trouble :p



Yeah...that was the short version lol. Sorry to make you read all that. :eek:

WOW. All I can say is if they were expecting you, you should have called. If they weren't, then you are a grown woman and don't have to coddle to them if you don't wish to. Sorry the man acted like that, that is never a good thing. Perhaps it is better to just end it if you already weren't happy with the situation.

As for the roommate: ?????? WOW! I guess I should have stopped paying my rent when we got a new landload too! LOL. That is amazing to me... So are you moving out for sure? At least you have a new place to go lined up.

I guess I'm glad the doctor checked before I wigged out too! Another hospital trip would not be good. I just hate that it was a waste of time. As for the work thing, I tried to let it go last night. I sent a new email to the girl and said that I was not the one complaining about the stuff nor the one blowing things out of proportion. I told her to believe what she wanted to, I didn't care anymore, and that I already did said job this morning so she doesn't have to worry about it. I'm going to leave it at that and vent to my shrink tomorrow I'm sure! lol


So how was the thunderstorm for you in Spokane?
I know I enjoyed it, I love the rain and thunderstorms.

I love the rain too, but the thunderstorm wasn't by my place. I got some rain, then snow. I missed all the good stuff! What part of Idaho are you in?
 

RemnanteK

Seeking More Truth
I love the rain too, but the thunderstorm wasn't by my place. I got some rain, then snow. I missed all the good stuff! What part of Idaho are you in?

Post Falls, we got hail, rain, lightning, and thunder that set off my cars' alarms. lol
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
Post Falls, we got hail, rain, lightning, and thunder that set off my cars' alarms. lol

Wow, a whole 20-30 miles down the road from me. I'm on the west side of town, up higher than town. I get snow, town gets rain. We do get some nice thunderstorms up here though.
 

Stellify

StarChild
WOW. All I can say is if they were expecting you, you should have called. If they weren't, then you are a grown woman and don't have to coddle to them if you don't wish to. Sorry the man acted like that, that is never a good thing. Perhaps it is better to just end it if you already weren't happy with the situation.

As for the roommate: ?????? WOW! I guess I should have stopped paying my rent when we got a new landload too! LOL. That is amazing to me... So are you moving out for sure? At least you have a new place to go lined up.

I guess I'm glad the doctor checked before I wigged out too! Another hospital trip would not be good. I just hate that it was a waste of time. As for the work thing, I tried to let it go last night. I sent a new email to the girl and said that I was not the one complaining about the stuff nor the one blowing things out of proportion. I told her to believe what she wanted to, I didn't care anymore, and that I already did said job this morning so she doesn't have to worry about it. I'm going to leave it at that and vent to my shrink tomorrow I'm sure! lol
They weren't expecting me. They just couldn't find me for twelve hours and flipped out. :shrug:
That's pretty much what I thought about the whole thing. It's good to know you agree lol.
Yeah...Between dealing with abusive/crazy people my whole life and having a generally low bullsh** tolerance, I'm going to end it. I don't need (or want) someone with such a violent temper....if that was just because I didn't respond to a couple text messages, imagine what would happen if I actually DID something :eek:

I'll be moving out for sure at some point over the next couple months anyways, because they're going to be closing the complex down. But this little fiasco makes me think I might leave early to get away from the room mate and drama, you know?

Let me know how your shrink visit goes! I'll try to be online a bit more today, catching up on stuff. Hopefully I'll see you around :D

:hug:
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
They weren't expecting me. They just couldn't find me for twelve hours and flipped out. :shrug:
That's pretty much what I thought about the whole thing. It's good to know you agree lol.

I flip out when I can't find you for twelve hours! LOL

Yeah...Between dealing with abusive/crazy people my whole life and having a generally low bullsh** tolerance, I'm going to end it. I don't need (or want) someone with such a violent temper....if that was just because I didn't respond to a couple text messages, imagine what would happen if I actually DID something :eek:

I'm sure they were just worried, but the reaction to be relieved at seeing somebody is different than flipping out and being angry. I know what you mean though about how he'd react if you actually did something wrong. Here he could have at least talked to you, told you he got worried, and then you can find some sort of understanding for the next time.

I'll be moving out for sure at some point over the next couple months anyways, because they're going to be closing the complex down. But this little fiasco makes me think I might leave early to get away from the room mate and drama, you know?

Getting away from drama is usually a good thing, but either way t sounds like you'll only be there for a short while...

Let me know how your shrink visit goes! I'll try to be online a bit more today, catching up on stuff. Hopefully I'll see you around :D

It went good and bad, I guess. lol. We mostly talked today about my feelings of helplessness. How I don't like and don't always react well to it. I need to accept that I am helpless and I don't know what after that. She even said in a lot of 12 step programs, being helpless is one of the steps. I've already done guilt, anger, and others... this one may take me a while though.

The stupid hospital still hasn't billed everything to the insurance company. So today I found out that all my shrink appointments have already gone through. I had to pay $429 today! That is really going to cripple me and AGAIN, I feel helpless. It will come off my deductible, but the hospital would have more than covered the cost and I will have a payment plan for them as well as financial aid. At least my shrink decided not to bill the insurance any more till I know the hospital bill goes through. Then I'll only owe $15 an appointment like I've been paying instead of $75 a pop!

Waiting on the hospital makes me helpless for there is nothing I can do about it. Them having not billed my insurance company really screwed me today though. I'll be cutting my losses and going to bed soon, otherwise I'll sit here and stress out about bills all day long. Its okay, it is a problem of my own doing and I guess I'll figure it out eventually.... as well as how to deal with being helpless.
 

Stellify

StarChild


I flip out when I can't find you for twelve hours! LOL



I'm sure they were just worried, but the reaction to be relieved at seeing somebody is different than flipping out and being angry. I know what you mean though about how he'd react if you actually did something wrong. Here he could have at least talked to you, told you he got worried, and then you can find some sort of understanding for the next time.
Haha But you don't flip out in my face :p

Yeah, and that's what I told him today. He tried to tell me that his reaction wasn't even him "angry", it was just him "worried"...I pointed out that THAT is exactly what worries me so much lol.

Although, I think part of the reason he may have flipped out so badly was because of my room mate...apparently, they had been talking behind my back about things, and roomie, lovely back-stabber that she is, was saying all kinds of **** to him! Like, stuff that wasn't true, or was at the very least exaggerated or twisted so that it made it seem like I was hiding things or cheating on him or something. Poor guy.
But, regardless, I went to go talk to him today and he REALLY flipped out. I couldn't get in two words at a time without him blowing up more, and when I tried to leave because he was going off so badly, he leaned against my car door so I couldn't open it and get away. So, even though roomie was part of the problem...he still had such a horrible reaction..imo. I broke things off for good today.

I can't tell if I feel better about it or not. I think I do. But I also can't stand hurting people, and I know he's hurting a lot.


It went good and bad, I guess. lol. We mostly talked today about my feelings of helplessness. How I don't like and don't always react well to it. I need to accept that I am helpless and I don't know what after that. She even said in a lot of 12 step programs, being helpless is one of the steps. I've already done guilt, anger, and others... this one may take me a while though.

The stupid hospital still hasn't billed everything to the insurance company. So today I found out that all my shrink appointments have already gone through. I had to pay $429 today! That is really going to cripple me and AGAIN, I feel helpless. It will come off my deductible, but the hospital would have more than covered the cost and I will have a payment plan for them as well as financial aid. At least my shrink decided not to bill the insurance any more till I know the hospital bill goes through. Then I'll only owe $15 an appointment like I've been paying instead of $75 a pop!

Waiting on the hospital makes me helpless for there is nothing I can do about it. Them having not billed my insurance company really screwed me today though. I'll be cutting my losses and going to bed soon, otherwise I'll sit here and stress out about bills all day long. Its okay, it is a problem of my own doing and I guess I'll figure it out eventually.... as well as how to deal with being helpless.
Yeah, I have a big problem with the helpless thing, too. I freak out a little lol. I'm not really sure how to go about being better about it...other than learning to take deep breaths and let things go when they're out of your control.

Ugh....Hospitals are HORRIBLE about that stuff. It's SO irritating.
If nothing else works, just keep calling them and make yourself a big enough pain in the *** that they finally do it just so you'll leave them alone lol :p


Hope your night goes better! I've gotta jet right now, but I'll come back as soon as I can!

xoxoxo :hug:
 

RemnanteK

Seeking More Truth
So today we had:
Sun, Snow, Snow Lightning and Thunder, Hail, Rain, then more snow.
God Loves the NW states. LoL
 

Comet

Harvey Wallbanger
Haha But you don't flip out in my face :p

Yeah, and that's what I told him today. He tried to tell me that his reaction wasn't even him "angry", it was just him "worried"...I pointed out that THAT is exactly what worries me so much lol.

Although, I think part of the reason he may have flipped out so badly was because of my room mate...apparently, they had been talking behind my back about things, and roomie, lovely back-stabber that she is, was saying all kinds of **** to him! Like, stuff that wasn't true, or was at the very least exaggerated or twisted so that it made it seem like I was hiding things or cheating on him or something. Poor guy.
But, regardless, I went to go talk to him today and he REALLY flipped out. I couldn't get in two words at a time without him blowing up more, and when I tried to leave because he was going off so badly, he leaned against my car door so I couldn't open it and get away. So, even though roomie was part of the problem...he still had such a horrible reaction..imo. I broke things off for good today.

Yeah if his worried reaction is angry, I'd hate to see him mad too. That sucks when people just won't let you go and impede your leaving. That really sucks when you can't get in a word edgewise. Roommates can suck when they act like that... all I can say is DRAMA! lol


I can't tell if I feel better about it or not. I think I do. But I also can't stand hurting people, and I know he's hurting a lot.

I hate hurting people too, but the longer you stay where you don't want to be the harder it will be on all. Time heals, I guess.... hope you feel better soon.


Yeah, I have a big problem with the helpless thing, too. I freak out a little lol. I'm not really sure how to go about being better about it...other than learning to take deep breaths and let things go when they're out of your control.

I'm learning to accept it and be as okay with it as I can be.... I guess it will take more time or something...

Ugh....Hospitals are HORRIBLE about that stuff. It's SO irritating.
If nothing else works, just keep calling them and make yourself a big enough pain in the *** that they finally do it just so you'll leave them alone lol :p

Yeah, having to pay the shrink is going to cripple me for a month! Oh well, could be worse I guess. I'll deal with it or just ignore my bills longer! lol.


Hope your night goes better! I've gotta jet right now, but I'll come back as soon as I can!

xoxoxo :hug:


Hope you got some sleep finally and I should be around tonight. Have a better day.

XOXO
 

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So now my shrink wants me to work on my HO-HUM days. I've been having a lot of them lately, perhaps due to the bills coming in and being poor. I don't know. She says I need to make the effort to not withdraw from people and when I get ho-hum and just blah to be around people. So, I guess I'll start working on that today. She also says I need something to look forward to in life. I just don't know what that is yet...
 
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