I mananged two weeks and three days from RF. Dam, that was hard. I am now eating a ridiculous amount of apples for snacks, started having regular walks in the morning, lost a few pounds and have been collecting my thoughts in a notebook. Depression has eased up quite a bit too and my head is clearer as well.
Leaving wasn't smart (just so you know @Rowan
) but I was really desperate to speed up my recovery knowing that it has been nearly eight years of depression. It's frustrating to think what I could have done in that time and then wonder how much longer it will drag on for, that horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wanted real life to take priority and I gave it a try to see what would happen if I was away from here.
In trying to become a different person, It turns out I missed you much more than I expected. I have changed even in that short space of time, not enough for my liking, but still there is a void that only RF can fill. I'll try to start over and approach things differently so I don't get so worked up about stuff, but this is where I belong.
In my travels, I found this meme which sums up my feelings rather beautifully: I'm crazy with you and I'm still crazy without you. I think that is what freinds are for.
Leaving wasn't smart (just so you know @Rowan
) but I was really desperate to speed up my recovery knowing that it has been nearly eight years of depression. It's frustrating to think what I could have done in that time and then wonder how much longer it will drag on for, that horrible sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I wanted real life to take priority and I gave it a try to see what would happen if I was away from here.In trying to become a different person, It turns out I missed you much more than I expected. I have changed even in that short space of time, not enough for my liking, but still there is a void that only RF can fill. I'll try to start over and approach things differently so I don't get so worked up about stuff, but this is where I belong.
In my travels, I found this meme which sums up my feelings rather beautifully: I'm crazy with you and I'm still crazy without you. I think that is what freinds are for.
