The Sum of Awe
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I recently read The Stranger by Albert Camus (okay, okay, it was the audiobook I listened to. I'm lazy, okay?) It was really good, it'll definitely be one of those stories that will stick to the bulletin board of my mind that I'll return to now and again. I liked the protagonist Meursault who was depicted as an emotionless, amoral man. He was a true example of a nihilist as I've always understood it. And I'm a bit embarrassed to admit that I sort of admired this character. I know that I shouldn't and I know that isn't what Camus intended. I suppose the traits I admired about him were more of his pure authenticity and his stoicism, instead of how those traits were taken to the extreme with acting without empathy and complete indifference towards everything.
My interpretation was that, this man represented nihilism, or in Camus' philosophy, someone who was aware of the Absurd (life is without inherent meaning, but humans strive for meaning). I think at the end this man came to the conclusion that Camus did about "rebelling against the absurd". This is after he exploded at the chaplain who kept trying to make him believe in God and pray for his soul:
"For the first time and a long time I thought about my mom. I felt I now understand why, at the end of her life she had taken a fiance, why she played a new beginning again. Even there in that Home where lives were fading out. So close to death, my mom must have felt free then and ready to live it all again. And I felt ready to live it all again too, as if that blind rage had washed me clean, rid me of hope. For the first time, in that night alive with sights and stars, I opened myself to he gentle indifference of the world. Finding it so much like myself, so like a brother really. I felt that I had been happy, and was happy again. For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone, I only wished that there would be large crowd of spectators the day of my execution, and they would greet me with cries of hate."
(not word for word but close)
To me it symbolizes that regardless of how you live life, it all amounts to the same thing. But it's understandable and useful to set up priorities and hopes for yourself, that is your Sisyphean boulder, and to work to achieve them. Even for Meursault, who was in a prison cell awaiting execution moreso for not meeting society's expectations rather than an actual crime, he found hope in an angry crowd at the day of his execution. Whether you get the boulder over the hill or not, whether your priorities change over time, it's all the same in the end. If anyone is more well versed in Absurdism correct my interpretation if it's wrong.
I plan on listening to The Myth of Sisyphus next. I actually did try today, I listened for 40 minutes but he uses a lot of big words and it's hard for me to follow. But I'm definitely going to keep trying until I understand it. I may take it a chapter at a time, reflect on the chapter, that might help me understand the book better.
Has anyone read either of these two books? Are you familiar with Absurdism? What are your thoughts on The Stranger, The Myth of Sisyphus, Absurdism itself?
My interpretation was that, this man represented nihilism, or in Camus' philosophy, someone who was aware of the Absurd (life is without inherent meaning, but humans strive for meaning). I think at the end this man came to the conclusion that Camus did about "rebelling against the absurd". This is after he exploded at the chaplain who kept trying to make him believe in God and pray for his soul:
"For the first time and a long time I thought about my mom. I felt I now understand why, at the end of her life she had taken a fiance, why she played a new beginning again. Even there in that Home where lives were fading out. So close to death, my mom must have felt free then and ready to live it all again. And I felt ready to live it all again too, as if that blind rage had washed me clean, rid me of hope. For the first time, in that night alive with sights and stars, I opened myself to he gentle indifference of the world. Finding it so much like myself, so like a brother really. I felt that I had been happy, and was happy again. For everything to be consummated, for me to feel less alone, I only wished that there would be large crowd of spectators the day of my execution, and they would greet me with cries of hate."
(not word for word but close)
To me it symbolizes that regardless of how you live life, it all amounts to the same thing. But it's understandable and useful to set up priorities and hopes for yourself, that is your Sisyphean boulder, and to work to achieve them. Even for Meursault, who was in a prison cell awaiting execution moreso for not meeting society's expectations rather than an actual crime, he found hope in an angry crowd at the day of his execution. Whether you get the boulder over the hill or not, whether your priorities change over time, it's all the same in the end. If anyone is more well versed in Absurdism correct my interpretation if it's wrong.
I plan on listening to The Myth of Sisyphus next. I actually did try today, I listened for 40 minutes but he uses a lot of big words and it's hard for me to follow. But I'm definitely going to keep trying until I understand it. I may take it a chapter at a time, reflect on the chapter, that might help me understand the book better.
Has anyone read either of these two books? Are you familiar with Absurdism? What are your thoughts on The Stranger, The Myth of Sisyphus, Absurdism itself?