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I'm convinced I have symptoms of OCD. I might be wrong, but it lines up with the symptoms list
Most of the time it's terrible thoughts that make me squirm and they come up on their own. For one example; death of very close loved ones. Another example is kicking my dog for no reason (I WOULD NEVER EVER DO THAT) it's just sick and twisted.
Then there are just annoying ones where I have to spell a word in my head and focus in detail of its shape. For example; i spell the word "black" in my head and focus on the curve on one side, and then the flat on the other side.
It has a toll physically to, but not as much: after work I wash my hands five or six times in a row just to be completely sure. Then after that I shower, shampooing twice and soaping twice. Then again this might be normal for dirty farm work.
When typing, if a finger touches the key at the edge of it, i need to retype it.
Brush up against something too lightly i need to go back and brush up against it again, but harder this time.
Once I was backing up and almost hit an oil tank and my foot slid off the accelerator partly so i had to do it once more. Luckily I could control myself in that situation.
I'm afraid that if I go see a psychologist because I'm afraid they might think I'm lying since I know a lot of it already
Are there any treatments for OCD I can do myself?
Most of the time it's terrible thoughts that make me squirm and they come up on their own. For one example; death of very close loved ones. Another example is kicking my dog for no reason (I WOULD NEVER EVER DO THAT) it's just sick and twisted.
Then there are just annoying ones where I have to spell a word in my head and focus in detail of its shape. For example; i spell the word "black" in my head and focus on the curve on one side, and then the flat on the other side.
It has a toll physically to, but not as much: after work I wash my hands five or six times in a row just to be completely sure. Then after that I shower, shampooing twice and soaping twice. Then again this might be normal for dirty farm work.
When typing, if a finger touches the key at the edge of it, i need to retype it.
Brush up against something too lightly i need to go back and brush up against it again, but harder this time.
Once I was backing up and almost hit an oil tank and my foot slid off the accelerator partly so i had to do it once more. Luckily I could control myself in that situation.
I'm afraid that if I go see a psychologist because I'm afraid they might think I'm lying since I know a lot of it already
Are there any treatments for OCD I can do myself?