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[MissingSomething]

Hey folks. My name is Travis and I am hear to learn with an open mind. My childhood was not easy to say the least and as much as I try not to let it bother me, I think it always will.

Getting to religion I was a member in my Uncle's Baptist church and loved hearing him teach every Sunday I could make it. His wife ended up cheating on him and leaving. He gave up his role as a Pastor. It was a terrible ordeal for a young person trying to learn how to act.

After that I turned somewhat rebellious. Then came to who I am now (Open). I consider myself lost, to be honest. I feel strongly about not wanting to do the church thing. Only its so hard cause I have no one to talk to when I have questions. What bothers me the most is when I mention religion in other forum sites I am picked on. First thing is complete shock that so many seem to hate God. Now I am really feeling low about it.

So this is really why I am here. I remember someone said that the person thats already a child of the dark side is safe and forgotten by said dark side. Its when you try to leave that you really notice it. I opened up the Bible the other day and the same day life really stated hitting me hard. I cant calm my nerves and I get really angry over normal things, that can easily just be talked out. For example; Today I got mad at my wife for talking on the phone when we where trying to make plans for the vacation we are leaving for tomorrow. I threw a plate in the kitchen and broke the window. I could not control the anger. So if I don't do something, I feel like I am going to fail. I want out of this trap.

I know its not going to be easy but I want to try. Thanks for reading SSL

[Revoltingest]

Greetings!

[Badran]

Welcome to the forum, MS.

I hope that your participation here helps in finding answers to your questions.

[Huey09]

you and I may be in the same boat. except I'm alil younger but left christianity because of all the ritual and pomp. Also I have been filled with hate these past few years. so If you need a friend I got your back.

[confused453]

You might want to check this show.
The Atheist Experience TV Show
Youtube has better quality than what's on their site..
http://www.youtube.com/user/TheAtheistExperience

[MissingSomething]

Originally Posted by Revoltingest

Greetings!

Wow, you and Bad have a huge post count. That puts me at ease. Bet this will be a great place for good conversation. Thanks for the welcome everyone.

[Godwilling]

Please do not mix your religious queries with your behavior. The behavior you have described appears to be a clear example of anger management difficulties. You would do yourself and your love ones a world of good by attending anger management counseling.

Avoid free or cheap choices. Good psychotherapy costs money.

The issue of religion is an intellectual/philosophical one and should not give you much more discomfort than the occasional headache.

[s2a]

Originally Posted by MissingSomething

Hey folks. My name is Travis and I am hear to learn with an open mind. My childhood was not easy to say the least and as much as I try not to let it bother me, I think it always will.

Getting to religion I was a member in my Uncle's Baptist church and loved hearing him teach every Sunday I could make it. His wife ended up cheating on him and leaving. He gave up his role as a Pastor. It was a terrible ordeal for a young person trying to learn how to act.

After that I turned somewhat rebellious. Then came to who I am now (Open). I consider myself lost, to be honest. I feel strongly about not wanting to do the church thing. Only its so hard cause I have no one to talk to when I have questions. What bothers me the most is when I mention religion in other forum sites I am picked on. First thing is complete shock that so many seem to hate God. Now I am really feeling low about it.

So this is really why I am here. I remember someone said that the person thats already a child of the dark side is safe and forgotten by said dark side. Its when you try to leave that you really notice it. I opened up the Bible the other day and the same day life really stated hitting me hard. I cant calm my nerves and I get really angry over normal things, that can easily just be talked out. For example; Today I got mad at my wife for talking on the phone when we where trying to make plans for the vacation we are leaving for tomorrow. I threw a plate in the kitchen and broke the window. I could not control the anger. So if I don't do something, I feel like I am going to fail. I want out of this trap.

I know its not going to be easy but I want to try. Thanks for reading SSL

Welcome.

It may be fair to say that you can expect to be fairly treated for what you say here, which is to say that others may lend differing perspectives to those of your own expressed here.

If you do not seek challenges to what you believe, or think you believe, or would claim as irreconcilable "truths", you may want to avoid forums of debate here...

Just keep the china under wraps...we're largely non-violent here

[MissingSomething]

Originally Posted by Huey09

you and I may be in the same boat. except I'm alil younger but left christianity because of all the ritual and pomp. Also I have been filled with hate these past few years. so If you need a friend I got your back.

Nice. Will add ya then. I am here also. Well leaving the internet behind for vacation tomorrow but in a week I will be here for you also .

Originally Posted by Badran

Welcome to the forum, MS.

I hope that your participation here helps in finding answers to your questions.

TY I hope so as well. Have a good one.

Originally Posted by confused453

You might want to check this show.

has better quality than what's on their site..

Oh man I am not going down that road. I have been open but being open has taken me down a dark road. I no longer want that in life. Here is where I have issues with Atheist people and the thought process.

1. They have faith that God was made up. Why not just have faith that he was/is real? Really it does not hurt one way or the other if he was not real, but if he was real then to deny him brings all sorts of problems in life and death. So why leave it to chance. Just like no one can prove he was real. No one can prove he was not.

2. People need common ground. In my life as being an open person I had the thought that he was just made up to keep us inline and doing well. Slap my self in the head. "DOING WELL". I want to do well in life. So if he is not real and when I die the lights just go out and nothing else. I can still feel at the moment light dims that I had a ball when I was here. When I grew up I learned from my mistakes and in order to stop myself from making the same mistakes I had help.

With no God who do we go to for help? We just go into the darkness with no guide alone and hopeless. I want the feeling of hopelessness to end. Above all; Like I said. "If he is not real it will not hurt a thing". Like I will ever know the truth if the lights just went out anyways.

[MissingSomething]

Originally Posted by Godwilling

Please do not mix your religious queries with your behavior. The behavior you have described appears to be a clear example of anger management difficulties. You would do yourself and your love ones a world of good by attending anger management counseling.

Avoid free or cheap choices. Good psychotherapy costs money.

The issue of religion is an intellectual/philosophical one and should not give you much more discomfort than the occasional headache.

Sorry but you read into what I said wrong, or maybe I presented it wrong. Anger management I can agree with though. But to be honest, even if I could afford it I probably would not go. What I am trying to do is get the dark out and add light. If that does not help then maybe I will consider something else. I would rather do something, then nothing at this point.