Just need a place to rant (choice, hell, sexuality)

[Jaymes]

I really wish I wasn't hypersensitive to what people think of me. Well, it's not that I care what they think, I just wish they'd wait until after I'm gone to laugh and whisper
Today in class I was staring at this girl's bracelet 1) because I have the flu and have been spacing out like hell lately and 2) because I wanted to know what it says (it was a white bracelet, and was kind of hard to read).

And by her logic, me staring obviously means I want to screw her.

So she starts acting all grossed out and whispers and goes "Ew, ew!" and acts like I'm about to rape her in the classroom or something.

It really shouldn't bother me as much as it does, I know. I made a choice to be who I am an not pretend to be anyone else... but it bothers me. Sitting and listening to people giggles (you know, the way people giggle when someone has done something wrong) and give me sideways glances for more than a half hour is very disconcerting, especially when I'm trying to learn.

Just... yea, feeling kind of out of it. Advice would be welcome.

[robtex]

So what stopped you from asking her where she got her braclet?

[Jaymes]

I'm painfully shy. I was afraid if I said anything to her she'd start on the whole "EW YOU'RE GAY" thing.

[Jaiket]

Originally Posted by Jensa

"EW YOU'RE GAY"

In our schools most kids don't feel the need to alert gay people to their own sexuality, they much prefer throwing punches.

[Jaymes]

Originally Posted by truthseekingsoul

In our schools most kids don't feel the need to alert gay people to their own sexuality, they much prefer throwing punches.

Our school is very strict about fighting, so all the "attacks" with me are verbal.

I'd rather be punched, really.

[Jaiket]

Originally Posted by Jensa

Our school is very strict about fighting, so all the "attacks" with me are verbal.

I'd rather be punched, really.

You'd think that.

[Jaymes]

Originally Posted by truthseekingsoul

You'd think that.

Yea, I do. I can deal with physical wounds easier than emotional ones. All I have to do is bandage physical ones. I don't know what to do about emotional ones.

[Mr Spinkles]

Jensa-- You should have told that girl that you don't find her attractive at all--in fact, she's probably the most hideous girl you've ever seen in your life (she could stand to lose a couple of pounds, no less). Perhaps that would put her at ease.

[cfer]

Originally Posted by Mr_Spinkles

Jensa-- You should have told that girl that you don't find her attractive at all--in fact, she's probably the most hideous girl you've ever seen in your life (she could stand to lose a couple of pounds, no less). Perhaps that would put her at ease.

While that may make you feel better in the short term, I don't see how that helps anything in the long run.

Jensa, sorry you had that happen to you. I hope you get over your flu quickly, though.