Apathy = Death (hell, mission, philosophy)

[Cr0wley]

You guys, this isn't funny anymore...

Ever get to that stage where nothing matters anymore, that nothing cheers you up and you feel that you're never going to mean anything in the long run anyway?

How did you get out of it?

[Druidus]

You guys, this isn't funny anymore...

It never is.

Ever get to that stage where nothing matters anymore, that nothing cheers you up and you feel that you're never going to mean anything in the long run anyway?

Yes. I've been there. It's not fun.

How did you get out of it?

I waited it out. A couple things that seemed to help: Green Tea, certain video games, books, especially philosophy ones (I reccomend works by Plato, I can give you online links if you like), and exercising.

Exercising is probably the most help of them all. Go outside, and run. Just run. Don't stop till' you absolutely can't possibly run anymore. Do it again the next day. I promise you, it can become euphoric, after the first bit. Besides that, it is good for you, helps you lose weight, and engages your metabolism, which can give you a nice boost of happiness. Not to mention the increased production of dopamine and seratonin, both involved in happiness. Just try it.

[Fluffy]

Cr0wley, you haven't even been on this board a month but already you have posted nearly 200 insightful posts which were a joy to read. You seem like a really nice person who is obviously quite intelligent, based on the content of your posts, so I'm quite certain that your contribution to the great scheme of things will be a large and positive one.

Life is an incredibly complex thing and you are probably in the worst position to see the impact that you make upon it, as is everybody. That doesn't mean that you are meaningless, just that the meaning eludes you. Surely, given life's low chance of having been achieved in the first place, the evidence points to there being a meaning out there, waiting to be found? Hope is the best cure for apathy.

[Druidus]

Remember, Crowley, if it gets very bad, see a professional. If you start getting suicidal thoughts, or thoughts of just giving up, I highly reccomend you visit a professional psychiatrist. They'll know what to do better than I.

[EnhancedSpirit]

CrOwley, I have also enjoyed your company, maybe cause I agree with you alot. I'm sorry your feelin' down. I . . . 'um. . . . you want some chocolate milk and cookies.


Seriously, though, I don't know what to do to help, can you be more specific? I give you permission to yell and scream if that will help. Everyone is hearby notified not to take anything CrOwley might say personally. I think he might need to vent. Let it out. Throw a good old fashion hissy fit.

[Cr0wley]

I'm not looking for attention, honest. I'm just incredably lonely. I don't seem to fit in anywhere anymore, my friends all just want the "old" me. I don't even know who that is! They say I've changed, it must be true because all of them are saying it. And I'm stuck in the middle of a crap situation with my ex-girlfriend. I still love her and she tells all her friends that she still loves me, but she left me because she "doesn't want to hurt me". And my school marks from last year doesn't let me qualify for any good positions, even if I do spectacularly this year (I'm in my final year). And even if it does, what am I going to DO out there?! I don't know what to study! Everything's spiraling into oblivion and I can't do anything. I'm sorry to go on like this, other people's problems are probably en times as bad as mine, but all this hurts and it's getting harder to put my "happy face" on every morning. I just wish that someone would tell me what exactly to do, because hell knows I'd do it, just to get on track again...

[Druidus]

It's normal to feel aimless at about that time. Have you considered going north about and helping out with the peace corps or something for a while? This can give you time to ready yourself for your injection into the real world.

[EnhancedSpirit]

AAAHHHH, I see. First lets address the friend and girl friend issue, just a little bit.

REASON, SEASON, LIFETIME

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.



When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.


They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it! It is real! But...only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

[Lintu]

I totally hear you. I've felt that way for a long time as well. What usually helps me is to think of good things that I'm waiting for, such as getting married next year, or things even further in the future, like a family. But then I just get stuck on too much delayed gratification. Sometimes I try to do something enriching like learning about a subject I'd never studied, or volunteering, or running charity races (I definitely agree on the advice to go out and run...it has always helped me a lot).

[meogi]

I wrote something similar to this in my journal a few days ago... not as dramatic, but it could help you.

Originally Posted by My Journal

But I’ll still be happy to be back in the states… sad about Natalie (more, sad I can’t be with her as often, if ever, anymore). Annoying situation. Thinking about it sucks… but I’m going to live day by day, like I’ve always done. Certain days can suck, but there’s always tomorrow… always another gentile smile. Always happiness on someone’s face. Not to sound cliché, or steal from a movie, but there is so much beauty in the world. I think about it sometimes and it brings me to tears. I don’t understand it. But the feeling I get thinking about it is overwhelming at times. It’s just so nice to be alive and witness it. F*** ever feeling bad… there’s always something to feel good about. Grab onto it, focus on it. Feel good about it. I’m going to try and live by this motto from now on. I guess I always sort of have…

How I go from talking about my crappy situation to Natalie to crying about everything to how to find happiness, I don’t know. I’m just skilled like that. Or no, it’s just that I had a certain thought train, finished it before I could focus on it, and went onto something that I associate with it. I’ve come to find my mind wondering ok though. I always feel really good when I can focus and understand something in my head. Maybe that’s another reason I love Natalie so much… I focus on her and everything becomes clear. It’s the s*** surrounding her and I that brings confusion occasionally. But it’s 2:30 now, and I’m a slow writer when I try to figure my thoughts out. I’m going to lay on my futon, and hope I dream of laying around… staying focused.

Focus on what you can. Find something you like to do, and do it. Go to a college that lets you study it...

I can never speak for anyone else, but these things help me stay happy... especially the living day by day thing. Planning can be good, but it's not necessary. Regret from the past can change you for the better, but you have to realize it. Don't agonize over semantics. Just have a fun ride... do what makes you happy.