PoetPhilosopher
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As a kid, I felt I was very gifted. I was completing some very difficult video games at a young age. I felt I even learned a little math from them, and also learned about puzzle-solving.
By age 13, I had taken up computer programming, which I consider a good challenge to one's skills in various areas - including patience.
I'd say I kind of had a positive outlook at the time, but I also kept a lot to myself.
There's a sort of mini-culture where I live, the town I live in. A lot of people seem to have an interest in ghosts and such topics. Even some of my family believed in them. But some actually later changed their beliefs on the topic.
I also believed in ghosts at the time, and I had a few "weird" experiences, but it kind of just all made me superstitious in general.
By age 20, I learned a bit more about subjects like logic, and stopped thinking as much about the paranormal - at least for the time. I met a couple of educated people who I started to hang out with. They were Unitarian Universalists.
Another year went by, and I started to get migraines and some started to comment how I was acting differently. I was consuming a lot of caffeine, and I could have also faced a bit of depression by that point - which wasn't related to me learning about logic, nor about me getting away from the paranormal - I think it simply had more to do with some emotionally draining events in my.life at that time and before.
Without going into a lot of details, I was eventually diagnosed with mental illness. After that, I stopped consuming a level of caffeine that wasn't good for me, also. If you ask me, I feel the caffeine really didn't help with all that I was going through at the time.
After all this, I experienced what I'd consider a little bit of a learning disorder, and I had to pick up the pieces of my life. This experience also gave me a greater understanding that I don't have to do it all alone. At this point, I trusted my psychiatrist and to be under his care and my life went from there. I also saw merit in making more friends, and keeping a little bit less to myself overall (ie, being more social now).
I've had a lot of experiences along the way since then. Some, the forum knows about. Others, I haven't conveyed, or I told once or twice and may have been forgotten about. I've had personal journeys regarding gender, sexuality, and spirituality, among other things.
I have covered all of these topics before on the forum, but not in the most concise or most coherent way. So I wanted to apologize for that, and also take a chance to properly convey my thoughts, without all the speculation and the in-betweens. I need to convey things in a not-too-complex way when describing them, without assuming that people automatically relate to or understand every detail. Because doing so allows me to paint a better picture where people understand what I'm saying better overall. If I get too complex here, the message simply gets lost.
Life is a journey, and in the heat of the moment, I may talk about how I wish some things were different... but looking back now, I see myself as where I want to be. I've learned a bit more about a few things including independence, and how to love people despite their differences, and how to forgive others, and accept love from those different from you. Life is still challenging sometimes, but I look forward to it and the future, and no longer feel like some clueless character thrust into the story of a dystopian novel. Anyways, that's how I feel. Thanks for reading.
By age 13, I had taken up computer programming, which I consider a good challenge to one's skills in various areas - including patience.
I'd say I kind of had a positive outlook at the time, but I also kept a lot to myself.
There's a sort of mini-culture where I live, the town I live in. A lot of people seem to have an interest in ghosts and such topics. Even some of my family believed in them. But some actually later changed their beliefs on the topic.
I also believed in ghosts at the time, and I had a few "weird" experiences, but it kind of just all made me superstitious in general.
By age 20, I learned a bit more about subjects like logic, and stopped thinking as much about the paranormal - at least for the time. I met a couple of educated people who I started to hang out with. They were Unitarian Universalists.
Another year went by, and I started to get migraines and some started to comment how I was acting differently. I was consuming a lot of caffeine, and I could have also faced a bit of depression by that point - which wasn't related to me learning about logic, nor about me getting away from the paranormal - I think it simply had more to do with some emotionally draining events in my.life at that time and before.
Without going into a lot of details, I was eventually diagnosed with mental illness. After that, I stopped consuming a level of caffeine that wasn't good for me, also. If you ask me, I feel the caffeine really didn't help with all that I was going through at the time.
After all this, I experienced what I'd consider a little bit of a learning disorder, and I had to pick up the pieces of my life. This experience also gave me a greater understanding that I don't have to do it all alone. At this point, I trusted my psychiatrist and to be under his care and my life went from there. I also saw merit in making more friends, and keeping a little bit less to myself overall (ie, being more social now).
I've had a lot of experiences along the way since then. Some, the forum knows about. Others, I haven't conveyed, or I told once or twice and may have been forgotten about. I've had personal journeys regarding gender, sexuality, and spirituality, among other things.
I have covered all of these topics before on the forum, but not in the most concise or most coherent way. So I wanted to apologize for that, and also take a chance to properly convey my thoughts, without all the speculation and the in-betweens. I need to convey things in a not-too-complex way when describing them, without assuming that people automatically relate to or understand every detail. Because doing so allows me to paint a better picture where people understand what I'm saying better overall. If I get too complex here, the message simply gets lost.
Life is a journey, and in the heat of the moment, I may talk about how I wish some things were different... but looking back now, I see myself as where I want to be. I've learned a bit more about a few things including independence, and how to love people despite their differences, and how to forgive others, and accept love from those different from you. Life is still challenging sometimes, but I look forward to it and the future, and no longer feel like some clueless character thrust into the story of a dystopian novel. Anyways, that's how I feel. Thanks for reading.
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